My mom has been begging to have Karma visit for a few months, and while there’s no way I’d agree to that, I figured it wouldn’t hurt to let her keep her for a couple of weeks. This was the perfect time to do that because BD decided it would be best for his life to leave and go back to St. Louis. He technically gave me 3 business days to find childcare or my other option he was giving me was to send her with him temporarily. He couldn’t give me a definite answer on where he’d be staying. He doesn’t have a phone and I wasn’t sure his car would make it back safely. So, I decided against that. Plus, he lives to see me suffer through fear, panic, and worry as he torments me with the idea or the actual reality of him breaking a promise to help me. As a matter of fact he laughed watching me cry about not knowing what to do with suddenly only having 3 days to find weekend care when the original agreement was that he’d wait to leave until after I found daycare. So, I knew that last option wasn’t one I could take because he seemed to be changing it up just to spite me for asking that he took most of the responsibility of finding childcare in his absence. It’s just really sad to me because I don’t feel we should be spiteful or evil. My child is going to suffer the most from it and no good can come from it. I really would have liked to have been able to accept that offer, and I could have just sent him with a phone, and made sure his ride was legit and asked that he call when he got to where he was going. Since he said he felt it wasn’t his responsibility to help me in “my situation” of needing childcare, I just didn’t feel like that offer was coming from a good place. It obviously wasn’t coming from a place of wanting to help ease a situation. If it was coming from a place of spite, I could see that situation being ugly. Since I actually needed the help, and needed it to be out of genuine want to help, I didn’t want to risk any ugliness.
Lion conservatory at the MGM Grand Hotel and Casino in Vegas
I’m glad I sent her to stay with my mom for a few weeks. I can have peace of mind while I’m trying to figure things out and she is up there having the time of her life. They are spoiling her to death and she LOVES spending time with them. She’s been crying about seeing them for months. I took vacation so I can be there half the time she’s there, but I don’t know if that’s what I’ll do because it would kind of defeat the purpose of taking time to figure out a long-term weekend childcare situation for my weekend shift. Though as of right now, those options look slim to none. I think I have a short-term situation figured out. My cousin is coming home from college and was weighing her options of staying with me, another cousin, or going back home to St. Louis to get a job. I told her she could just come and stay with me and I’d pay her for watching Karma while I was at work. Since they’re “best friends”, we would all win. Obviously that can only last for so long as they both will be going to school this fall. Right now, I’m praying that I can either find a long-term solution or talk my bosses into speeding up the process of my move into another department. That way, I could make more money, not have to worry about weekend childcare, and just pay for childcare during the week. My only other option, that I’m not so sure is still an option right now or will be an option for long as they are hiring, is to move to working during the week in my current position. That would come with a noticeable pay cut and would kind of defeat the purpose because if I’m adding back the expense of decent childcare, than obviously I’d like to make the same or more. Not to mention, I really enjoy the freedom and flexibility I get with my current schedule.But if worse comes to worse, I’ll just see what I can do about changing my work hours to be during normal business hours at the same time Karma starts school and just chunk up the cost of making less and paying more. I’ll do what I have to do in the end, and I’m expecting the situation to work out for the best because I can honestly say it always does.
